... life is good

well maybe not quite enough...

i'm tired...

and i miss rony...

did stages of love again for a literature class that bought the show... it went well. im so happy that the cast did an awesome job and so did the stage management and the lights crew and every bluerepper who helped out...

stages of love is now the longest running blurep show... u better believe it...

AND going to assumption college for an occular tomorrow... the school bought three shows of stages of love and we are going to perform on monday...

i miss performing...

i miss rehearsals...

i feel so left behind with all of my friends pursuing professional theatre... i'll get my chance... please Lord give me that chance...

busy with thesis... i hate the paper work involved, just changed my topic to musical theatre in the philippines rather than performance poetry... i'm not really a dancer or a poet just yet so might as well do a study and a show on something i've been training to do since i started college right?i'm actually using stages of love as my creative output for my thesis project...

some people might say that i am taking the easy way out by doing it again... but i think, looking at what i did with the bluerep show, there were a lot of things i learned... in terms of what worked or not... learning from my mistakes... refurbishing the script... i'll definitely improve it... and hopefully with this new production, make musical theatre accessible and broaden its audience...

went on an immersion trip from the 18 til the 20th... great experience... loved my foster family... suprisingly, got along with my roomate who was a little short of being a princess, only a straight one... nice fella though, former blockmate from management, very high maintenance, a little kid at heart who loves karaoke, got a long with him taking turns in pumping the poso... apparently there was a scandal... but don't believe the rumors! the other people i met during the trip were awesome as well...

our little group rocked the house with our performance--- a short exerpt from stages of love...i got a little tipsy... no not drunk... just easy clean happy fun... i'm not a belligerent alcohol drinker... angsting is not my thing really... didn't remember the latter half of the night... no i wasn't drunk... hopefully i didnt do anything too crazy... *sigh* had so much fun...

bluerepper home coming party of sorts tomorrow night... mingle with the oldies and the new recruits... i love it...

rony is coming home to me in september... the last time i saw him was back in early july i think... it gets hard... especially now that i'm doing a lot of things... i wish that i can just go home to him and just get that big old hug and forget about everything that is bothering my mind...

i need a change of attitude... caught myself looking at a mirror and i was scowling... such a gloomy theatening look... i have to have a positive aura... need to be more optimistic... i think im feeling the senior blues... i just want to get out... man... i swear after college, ill just disappear for a while 3 months or so... like poof! away from the city, away from the ateneo, away from the crowd... just by myself... just need 50 thousand pesos and maybe an atm for that to happen...

i'm tired...

i'm glad i have geegee... besides my family and rony, keeps me sane, we talk about our lovers, we insult each other still, and she might just join me on this great escape that i am planning... ill make room for here, i think we are on that same level of thinking and emotional/spiritual state. she's not in school anymore though... find myself being all i have no friends anymore drama... but i guess it really is different when you've found a really good friend that you trust and would just understand you... i mean i know i have other friends... but like geegee and i talked about... what we got is something crazy and weird and of course we feed each other's ego... i'm proud of her doing the whole theatre thing... we will share the stage again and force everyone to go love us!

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i'm tired...

but i am still smiling...

i love my mom... my brother and i are talking again... (that's another story)

my goal: do well in school and look good at 23 (by february)... and oh, make new friends... i need new friends... and stay happy!

sayang i dont have pictures yet from my immersion... will post soon!