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Thursday, November 15, 2007

Going Away to College

One of my favorite Blink-182 songs of all time. You should listen to the music. It's so raw and one of the best punk-love songs I've ever heard.

Please take me by the hand
It's so cold out tonight, I'll
Put blankets on the bed
I won't turn out the light, just
Don't forget to
Think about me, and I
Won't forget you
"I'll write you once a week," she said

Why does it feel the same
To fall in love or break it off?
And if young love is just a game, then
I must have missed the kick-off
Don't depend on me to
Ever follow through on
Anything but
I'd go through Hell for you and

I haven't been this scared
In a long time
And I'm so unprepared
So here's your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words
A simple melody
This world's an ugly place
But you're so beautiful to me

I'll think about the times
She kissed me after class and
She put up with my friends
I acted like an ass, I
Ditched my lecture
To watch the girls play soccer
Is my picture
Still hanging in her locker?

I haven't been this scared
In a long time
And I'm so unprepared
So here's your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words
A simple melody
This world's an ugly place
But you're so beautiful...

I haven't been this scared
In a long time
And I'm so unprepared
So here's your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words
A simple melody
This world's an ugly place
But you're so beautiful...

Thursday, January 04, 2007

RonyBu and AndreiBu

3 Years and counting...
Love it!

Rony made this video for me. It's super super nice. We've been through a lot and I'm really happy that he has me for a boyfriend, I mean... hehe

These are just some of the good times that we've shared for the past 36 months!
Love you bu! Come home na...

Happy Anniversary!

Monday, December 25, 2006



i think this year has been a time for a lot of change and growing up. I really hope I am learning from everything that has happened to me. Levinas once said: "you are all the books you have read, the places who have been to, all the people you've met..."

and so many thanks to those who have been a part of my life this year...

to loving boyfriends

understanding family

friends who believe

Friday, December 15, 2006

... oh lordy...

didn't realize 'til yesterday that next week is already my christmas break... still do not know how my siblings and i will be spending it. my brother and my sister-in-law and aeden are going to nueva ecija to spend time with the in-laws, my parents are in america, so it's just me and my sister and bunso...

rony is back again next week as well... he was just here last week for two weeks, so like i said before, i miss missing him hehe!

been very busy with school and high school musical. my thesis is all screwy, but i think its getting there. i had to change it last minute cause it was impossible to do what i proposed (well not really impossible, i just had trouble finishing the script on time... and its still not done yet). so im directing an existing work by this filipino author. im not going to write what it's about, might jinx it like the last one...

finally got my starbucks planner thanx toc hari and abi wooohooo... when rony was here, he said he was going to borrow the card so he can fill it in when he has coffee with some friends... that night... voila... chari hands me an early christmas present... you should have seen my reaction! I love it!

i like planners... i need planners... im really forgetful...

my sister came back from pangasinan last night, it was nice bonding with her. havent talked to her like that in a while... we were fixing the pantry stuff together. we got our yearly box the other night from the US (every year my grandparents and tita sends us two huge boxes of goodies from the US--- corned beef, sausages, spaghetti sauce, cereals--- stuff that you can buy here actually--- and some that you cant---)


i might AD vagina monologues for my friend/teacher/thesis advisor missy maramara in february... but i might jinx it, so ill shut up now...

hay gotta go to school...


Wednesday, November 22, 2006

... so the question is...

have you found your existential question yet...

we touched on this a little bit in my philosophy class today. from what i learned so far, the existential question is something that you have to confront and face, otherwise you will not be able to go through the rest of your life...

my teacher shares his experience that as a young graduate of the Ateneo (i'm thinking that was the post WWII era, 1950s or so... yeah he is a grandpa teacher) he went through several interviews with a then budding international company--- Proctor and Gamble and was offered a job. of course this was to the delight of his parents... his American Jesuit dean however pulled him aside one day and gave him a talk and says he thinks my professor has what it takes to be a teacher in a Belgian missionary school in the province... and that maybe he should go there to not only be a teacher, but also to experience life outside the ciudad.

so after much inner struggle, he chooses the province... his parents disappointed, more like angry... he was crying while he was packing all his stuff... they did not even help him go to the bus station to divisoria and it was raining...

so he gets to bayombong to this missionary school... and to cut the long story short... he was briefed with all things he has to do in the school--- teach philosophy, theology, literature, and was the basketball coach (he wasn't even a good basketball player, they put him there however because Ateneo won that year and that upon finding out that the new coach is from Ateneo, the teams in the competing schools would be demoralized--- alam mo naman sa probinsya he says...)

then he was taken to the place where he would stay and sleep. he says that the floor of his room was actual earth... and when he saw the bathroom... that was it... the same night he was off to manila. he arrived early the next morning and his dad says "what happened to our missionary...?"

so that day he goes back to Ateneo and talks to the dean, about how that life was not for him... that he'd rather work for Proctor and Gamble, etc...

then the Dean said, "Well, it's your decision. But just think about it, 20 years from now, will you really be proud of all the soap you helped produce in that company (at that time the main product of P&G was soap)?

that afternoon, he was on the bus, off to the Belgian missionary school and stayed there for two years... he has been teaching philosophy and theology ever since...

so there, figure out the moral of the story...

i love philosophy... makes u think... and thinkin frees me...

and what's even greater is when you find people that know what your talking about.

then you realize hey, maybe i am learning something in college haha!


Wednesday, October 25, 2006

... and when you thought I was lucky...

... it has gotten even better...

Flew to Hong Kong Monday night to be with Rony... then just a few hours ago he told me that he and I are packing our bags to stay for 4 days and 3 nights in a resort in Singapore!

Full of surprises... *sigh*

I'm lucky, sometimes I do not think I deserve all the good things that are happening to me. But there must be a reason why the dice lands on these numbers, not just this trip per se, but in my life in general.

I am at a happy place.

I love Rony!

Monday, October 16, 2006

finals week...

... just gotta make it through this week!!!

then i'm hong kong bound!

am so excited!

am still sick... i got a cold and am coughing... and i have a headache and im dizzy i dont get it!


i updated my multiply page last night. pretty cool. check it out

aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. am so tamad to study!

finally done with the thesis proposal and its going to be my defense on thursday...

i miss my mom and dad.

i miss rony too...