blessed...

"...everything you want to believe is already true. You may not find some of it for a little while, and some of it may take longer than that, but that doesn't keep it from being true this minute."

don't you just love this quote? for all of those believers out there... (thanks to jepoy who sent it to me through YM).

so updates updates updates...

actually i'm being lazy again but here goes it:

auditioned for the little mermaid on july 16th

got a call back monday morning in theo class! damn i was pumped! rony was so proud of me... ofcourse before that i was sobrang sad already cause two of my friends were told to come back on wednesday right away... Rony was still here then... he said it was okay... that it's part of the business...

so wednesday callbacks for the little mermaid... found out that only 19 guys were called back that day.... anyhoo was taught this song "i am complete" from the musical. Nice song... love it. a little too high for me. actually kaya naman... pero todo chesting ang kailangan kong gawin kasi ndi ko pde dayain with a falcetto cause i don't have a falcetto...

got through the song (of course with major glitches)... the first stanza i was left behind by the music, and so i just caught up on the 2nd stanza... then goes the high part "i am, i am. i am, i am." WHOA kinaya! galing ko i was ecstatic... final lines of the song... "i am compleeeghjtjjkkltrjette"... thats exactly what it sounded like... i'm not sure kung pumeyok ako or what not... but that was the end of it for me. Wasn't even disappointed when i didn;t hear my number for another callback on monday... just thought it was funny cause i apologized ng sobra sa panel... how embarassing. my playshop instructor, teacher sweet was just laughing... hehe... so it was all good...

saw chari in the audition place while waiting for the girls to finish...

went to shang for lunch... geegee and i were by the cinemas and joking around and pretending to steal the food that was displayed... then jepoy said someone was waving at me... i was like who... i looked by... it was rony's friend david shannon... i was like oh no! (david is a west-end actor--- ala broadway ng UK--- who starred in Miss Saigon and only last year was in Baby the Musical with Lea Salonga).

Shet. i just ignored a very important person WHO actually remembered me. Was actually gonna go back and be like... oh hey sorry I didn't see you... but when i turned around... he had left... haaay!

::note to self, be aware of waving caucasian men, wave back and say hi atleast dammit::

afterwards... saw "if only" with geegee and jepoy. movie was rather boring... but jennifer love hewitt's acting made up for it... as in the three of us couldn't stop crying...

got home... had a missed call from chari... (heart beating faster and faster) why would she call? what did i do... could it possible be...

me: "hello chari hi it's andrei"

chari: "hello andrei, we might need you for footloose. how's your schedule?"

me: "oh wow that's awesome. my schdule's fine." translation: HOLY FUCK, LET THIS BE TRUE LORD!

chari "can you come in tomorrow so we can hear u?"

me: "yeah sure" translation: IT'S TRUE. IT'S TRUE! OHHH MYYY GOD!

she gives the phone to ms. sissa and tells me the details...

so yeah i'm actually going to be in FOOTLOOSE with JR and Iya to be staged at Meralco Theatre in September! Most importantlyly ill be able to perform and learn a whole lot of new things from this production. I gotta get working and improve my singing... as in! I could get fired!

So happy! thanks to Chari for putting me in. I'm going to do my best. Learn that Mama Say's song... and actually blend with the harmonies... i have a hard time doing that... erghh... been practicing the song for two days na... i can do it!

Anyway... it's saturday today... cooked dinner and experimented with ground pork, some carrots and potatoes and a smidget of curry poweder and coco milk... so bale ang labas nun pork curry... but spicier and more colorful!!! i cut up some chili peppers and lots and lots of ginger. didn't use oil, but dairy creme and some grounded red peppers from Yellow Cab Pizza... SARAP. ofcourse the only ones who ate it were me and my nephew's yaya... she was soo sweaty nga eh... "kuya ang anghang naman"... hihi...

chatted with my bubu online and i got to work my webcam and mic... he saw me, i hear him... hehehe twas fun. he's getting a webcam so we can see each other when we chat... im excited!

anyhoo im outta here...

love you my bubu!

feelin' so good!

so i was hanging out last night with rony and my best friend KC, twas nice to be with my boyfriend and and to have dinner with KC again...



Okay, fine. I'm not really friends with her. Met her at the Beauty and the Beast cast party. Nice sweet girl. Rony introduced me to her, they've known each other for some time now, they both went to the same highschool (IS), so ofcourse I had to control my being starstrucked and keep it kool... Haaay. I'm so lucky, saw Beauty the 2nd time around, and I must say the show has much improved from press preview. The cast party followed at Zong in the Fort, good food and 'twas nice to see familiar faces over there:


Kyla


Chari and Abi


Topper and Bam

Most Embarrasing:

So at the Beauty party Bobby Garcia decides to ask me: "... So Andrei, when Rony is jerking you off..."

*jaw drops*

I swear! I mean I should be used to this right, coming from a BlueRep, but nooooo. These respected musical theatre people asking me and Rony about sex stories i.e. "So Rony, when Andrei is sucking you off..." Ofcourse a resounding laughter eminating from Chari... haaaay... I'm just like... uhhh i'm conservative!!!

Hehe, just thought it was amusing. Funny as hell! So watch out, once "So..." is immediately proceeded by your name... around these folk... be prepared. bwahahahaha!

Got to spend some chat time with my BlueRep Inay Kyla and interview Pochoy, her almost-there-but-not-boy-that-is-a-friend-sorta-kinda-like-yeah. And can I just say I am so proud of her!!! She's making it in this career!

Miss ya Inay!

This ofcourse was part of Rony's almost 4 day-weekend back in the Philippines. He got here at around midnight on Friday and flew back to HK at 5 am yesterday.

Weekend HIGHLIGHT!!!!

BIENG WITH MY BUBU. Having to sleep in his bedroom was remincent of the days of old we used to enjoy! Spent a lot of time with him and, I swear it felt like he never left at all. *sigh*


see?


Things we did:

He took me to the SPA for a nice sensual massage and facial. He is a little sosyal as some of you guys must know... so i guess i enjoy that as well.

Bought matching underwear... yay we got pictures!

Hanging out with Angel and Louis or Luis (sister and brother-in-law) at Rockwell to catch the awesome Fantastic 4 and seeing cute little Chloe!

Slept over *wink*

Beauty and the Beast and cast party

Slept over *wink*

Talk on the phone *wink*
hehehehe... lot and lots of fun!!!! Haay... love my bubu.

Rony asked me what the best part of his trip was... I said the feel good moments I got to spend at his place and just lay there in bed with him under the sheets (hoy wholesome toh!). I guess it's his warmth is what I miss the most when he is gone, so the simple moments where i get to hug him and sleep beside him and waking up next to him means the most to me more than anything… And atleast i got these past days pressed into my head so I got something to hold onto until he comes back for a visit again.

I miss you Love.

... my awfully huge head...

oh well i still look cute, especially with my bubu!

taken during his one day trip here.

Rony's coming back tomorrow! Wahoo!!!!

Love you bu!

waiting for life to begin...

oh gods, oh gods...

erhm, lost a textbook which i just bought last week. dammit!

philo class teacher asked this morning : "have you ever felt nature talk to you"

uh yeah, one time i was in my lola's garden and i heard voices. the flowers told me to set them free, so i pulled them out of the soil.

they stopped talkin.

ahhhhhh!

i murdered them!!!

then i went berserk and ran around the classroom and told everyone how pointless the class is!

yeah, actually i didn't do that, just sorta wanted to say it and see how people would react after hearing their pseudo-profound responses:

• oh yeah, i feel that the water is talkin to me when i'm swimming, and that's when i felt that i was moving with nature.
• i saw the clouds in mt. apog and they were gold and i felt one with nature.
• i was swimming in the rain and i was in the water. i felt warm underneath, but i suffered from the drops on my face.

crazy fools. hehehe. actually, here i am again being closed-minded about philosophy. i still don't see the point of being there. Shit, maybe i'm just really dumb.

rony was here as i mentioned in my earlier entry and he left na din alst night. but he is back on friday and spend more time then. had so much fun with him! awesome dinner and dessert and waking up next to him in the morning. I love it!

blueREP auditions are finally over. deliberation was not bloody, although there were two that people were really divided upon. in the end, we all pretty much agree on who this year's newbies are. and yay horrah, im excited!

the little mermaid auditions on saturday. shet i want to audition. ergh, but im not prepared. dont know what song to sing. i wonder what they're looking for. fuck, i want to be in a professional play already!!! I know im training as a theatre arts actor, i mean i can't even call myself an actor yet, but to be able to perform and also be paid for it now would be godsend. shet, i want to audition...

parents visiting this weekend. my mom is all alone in dagupan, kawawa naman so coming here in manila, it'll be a time well-spent!

miss you na bubu! I love you.. mwah!

forever is today

... u know when ur drinking with ur friends and u guys start asking each one stupid questions like "... if u were stuck on an island who would u like to be with?" or "... if there were only three women left, blah blah blah..."

well i know someone had ask me before "if for one night you would want to be with someone just for a few hours, anyone... who would that be?"

well, been thinking of that question since yesterday, and I didn't know who to answer. However, it occured to me that Rony is coming home tonight (actually as of now he is in the air from Subic to Manila and he is leaving the next day, he is here for Disney work)... and yeah... my answer would be RONY...

even just for a few hours, which is what it is going to be when he lands and I finally see him...

"if for one night I would want to BE with someone even just for a few hours..."

It'll be my love... my bu...

and i guess those few moments with him won't be too long

but being with him, it'll feel like forever.

i love you bu!

yay im excited!

hush

jarring insanity

thrusting my entity

into a blank being

of whirlwind depression

suicidal temptation

a monster within

too weak to fight

let the dark fool me

my spirit dead through the blinding night

oh, spinning tremble

not bliss

not hell

fucked up separation

burning

... shhh can't tell

18 months... 1.5 years...

Don't be Sad :$

Be glad ;p

I love you BuBu!

::dancing::

My bu is coming in two weeks, my bu is coming in two weeks!, YAY!