HAUNTED

AHHH!

I swear to the dog shitting down my street that I am gonna go crazy! I'm afraid Martin Heidegger is haunting my very essence. Scary shit noh? I think in all my classes it's always about Heidegger this and Heidegger that, ergh.

I don't get him!

He is making me think!

In philosophy, theology, and aesthetics of art class... it's like he did something great or something... (hehehe) actually he did.

Just found it sorta funny that in those three classes, all our readings point to Heidegger, the great german philospher who enlightened the world that all being is part of Being... naks na get niyo ba?

I really am having a hard time processing my thoughts when it's Heidegger talking. I mean I try to understand it and think about the thoughts we talk about in class, but at one point everything seems blurry to me. Maybe cause I just like things the way they are. I do not have that "desire to need" as my professor said, to take that direct path and know the purpose of why things exist.

In order to understand philosophy one must know that he does not know that somethings and that blah blah shit... ARGH! I'll get back to you with that epiphanous statement. To think that one of my closest friends just graduated with a major in Philosophy... ZzzZZzzzZzzz... how could she stand it? Hay, well she's in law school now, so good luck in philosophizing there.

Updates:

School is kool!

Mr. 80% is a success! We still have 4 more shows left and with that 4, I get two more runs as Leslie. So yowsah!

Don't get to hang out with my siblings that often, I get home late... everyone's asleep... haaay... oh well there's always the weekends to catch up on each other, and the time spent together always seems sweeter that way.

Parents coming over this weekend, that means we get real food and breakfast!!!!

AND AND AND!!!!My Sofronio is coming here in three weeks for the weekend to catch Beauty and the Beast (not for me actually, hehehe) sooo that would be the koolest thing in the world! I miss you bubu!

Realization:

Was on the car with Gabs last Sunday after a Microsoft show at Makati. And he was like, "So Andrei, how much do you miss Rony?"

::silence::

And I started thinking... Hmmm, a lot I say. Then I said it's a good thing now cause I am busy I don't think about him all that much during the day, cause that would just make me miserable. But it when it really gets hard is at night, when I am so tired from school, or from rehearsals, or from a show, or if I'm simply having a shitty day... there's no one there to call and talk about it with. I said I miss the little things like that... the goodnights, his voice, the I love you's...

::then gabs dropped my off the mrt in kamuning::

Still thinking about those things... shit... a tear... then another... fuck im crying in public... by myself... in front of strangers!

::breathe::

Oh, no... it's not stopping... holy fuck! Thanks a lot Gabs...

I was just really so stressed out that day... Literally, I was fueling myself with one hour of sleep with Mr. 80 percent and Microsoft prod work right after... I needed a release and cry for a bit...

::then Rony calls::

SHET... iyak nanaman... kakamiss lang talaga. The long distance thing is really hard, and I know it is for him too, but it's all good. Rony will make me a desperate housewife someday and we'll all be happy.

I cook supper, get the laundry from the cleaners, have coffee with the other Disney wifies... some margaritas in the afternoon, maybe do some acting on the side, but ofcourse my specialty will be making Rony happy, and fuzzy, and warm inside!!! hehehe

Shet parang tanga... hehehe

Love you bubu!!! Mwah!

Upnext:

I got History of theatre class with Dexter Santos at 10:30. Really nice fella, parang ako nga lang target nya sa class!!!! Hehehe... Pero shet, have not read Oedipus Rex yet. Good luck with that class, we got like 20 something plays to familiarize ourselves with in order to be true blue theatre arts majors.

Acting class tonight, must come up with some kind of physical deformity and present it to the class... *joy*... mahiyain pa naman ako!

ANd then have a show tonight! Hopefully more people watch!

*Miss you bu...

hello bubu

see, i blogged! hehe. have a good day bubu...

Love you!

Mr. 80 PERCENT

Just a few updates of what I am up to.

Mr. 80 Percent opening is on Thursday! So please to those who can watch, do so!

My cast's shows are on the June 23 and 25 at 7PM and July 1 at 3PM

Rizal Mini-Theatre Ateneo de Manila University (near Xavier Hall)

"Mr. 80%"

a cOmeDY aBoUt BeInG sTrAiGHt, gAy, aND fAkiNg It

Been Busy. Busy. Busy... actually I don't have time to tell you what I am upto!

I miss you BuBu! I love you. Don't be sad na okay? I'm still here.

... Look at the stars alight

We might be looking at the same one tonight...

I love you forever.

Last Minute Summer Look Back...

This was one of Bubu and me's beach tanning sessions at Golden Beach in HK.

So summer! So Fun!

I love you BuBuLiPs

Mah sexy man!

nag-feeling!

Lechon Andrei

DOMESTICATED

Allo Pipoh of tse Filipeeens. Wekom tsui Hong Kong!
:: translation, Hello People of the Philippines, Welcome to Hong Kong::

Hehe. How goes it everybody?

So it's my last day here in Hong Kong, China spending the last days of summer with Rony. Been here since the 8th and all I can say is that it has been a totally FUCKIN' Awesome, damn diggity shabangtastic expuuurrrience! Hell yeah! Ofcourse I have to thank bubu for bringing me here and for having the week off just to spend time with me (Actually, Disney gave him the week of to look for condos/apartments to live in. He has decided on Discovery Bay).

Rony's at work right now actually. So I just came downstairs here in the Business Center of the hotel to check email and what not on the net. My flight back to the motherland is at 9 PM so I have to be at the airport at least by 7 for check-in.

So here was Andrei's HK experience...

June 8. Went out the night before and when I got home started packing and shit. I did not sleep at all cause I had to leave the house by 4:30 AM. I felt sick na by this time because two night before leaving, I was drenched (well not maybe drench... nabasa yun lang) during Ren's inuman in Katipunan.
My supposed flight for 8 AM was cancelled because I had immigration problems. So freaking-pissed. Ofcourse I did not know what to do so todo pretend ang Andrei. Did not want to call anyone, so I just followed what they told me at the Immigration Department in the airport. HAAAAAY Putang ina!

Since I'm not a Filipino citizen I had to go all the waaaaay back to Intramuros, wait for Immigration to open and make suhol (hehe joke... *wink*) to get the papers that I needed processed. Ofcourse I was so tense cause I wasn't sure if I was able to get my papers right away and be able to book another flight within the day to get to HK. After a grueling hour at those dingy and damp offices, had to run to Philippine Airlines over at Padre Faura to rebook a flight. Good thing everything went smoothly na from there... Although by this time I was getting really sick... bad cold...

My flight was rebooked for 255 PM and that was that. Went to the airport and, the boredom hell began. I was there by ten... and although I brought a book to read, I was just not in the mood to read--- my eyes were stingy ( you know when you have a cold), mucus running down my nose... blech... wait... wait... wait...

Boarding time! Wahooo...

On the plane... yay saya... nu nee nu... *flight attendant falls on the floor holding coffee* fuck a really bad turbulence. As in no exagerration whatsoever... ofcourse my bubu won't believe my story! It's true!
My gosh, some lady was even praying over... Oh Lord Jesus, Lord Jesus... Lord Jesus... as in todo praise. In hindsight syempre funny di ba? Pero ndi! Meanwhile, I just tightened my seatbelt and hope to God that I do not die.

Whew. Nakarating na din...

First thought: Wow, I'm actually in China. I hope it doesn't smell.

From BuBu's blog "...I surprised him at the airport - told him just to take a shuttle to the hotel, but I waited for him at the gate. I wanted to be the first familiar face he sees. Since Wednesday, we beach-ified, shop-ified, did a little bit of sightseeing, saw all parts of Hong Kong in helping me house hunt, tried being spontaneous and got off at an odd MTR station (only to chicken out and cab to the nearest familiar landmark), took pictures galore, and cuddled watching Desperate Housewives like we used to in Manila."

Had the best of times here with Bubu. When we went to Kowloon he was like a kid again excited about seeing the Toys R' Us store at Harbour City and all the places he's been in when he was a kid!!! Took a lot of pictures and hung out a lot with Rony's theatre/Disney friends. The food trips were awesome. Rony and I always tried something authentic and different. And almost all the time, i loved my meal, he despised his and ran to a local KFC or McDonald's to satisfy his tummy.

Bu and I had the best dessert last night! What was great about it was that it looked exactly like the picture. And it was the first time in "normal conversation" did Rony and I uttered nothing but mild groans and moans, "mhmmmm, mhmm, uuhhh... mhmm, yeah this is great!" FUCKING Banana split was orgasmic! Hehehe

I'll miss my BuBu *sigh*

From Rony's Blog "we've made a deal to fight any temptation to make our relatioship something to be sad about. Which means no painting any of our memories with "I won't be able to ... again" or "what will i do without you?" or "who will be there to..." We're always gonna be here for each other and we got so much more to look forward to. He'll grow, I'll grow. He'll visit, I'll visit. And maybe one day, we'll get married. he he. We're gonna be fine."

haaayyy... and now I'm leaving! Love HK so much and I do not want to be away from Bubu. But we'll be seeing each other again soon, so it's all kool...

I'll post pics here when I get back na to the Philippines... School starts tomorrow. Yikes, reality check!

Looking forward to BlueRep rehearsals though.

Love you Bubu. Mwah. mwah. mwah! I'll miss you!

... the sun rises...

...HAPPY 17 MONTHS bubuLiPs...
June 4, 2005

I love you bubu!

so my Bubu left on the 31st and is now living in a hotel provided by the Disney folk for a good three weeks.

Damn, the sadness of it all. Ofcourse, I wanted to bawl my eyes out. Driving away from the airport, all I could pretty much do was stare outside the window. I did not want to look at Rony's sister, his mom, or his cute niece Chloe cause I'd just make a scene. And me crying... yeah that's a horror movie marathon in itself (in terms of how ugly I would get).

So I think all the tension of my tear muscles went into my head and I got a huge huge super headache afterwards. As in huge... maybe I should've cried... But I'm a strong man... *waaahhhh huhuhu*

Aww I miss Rony. Not till I was going to bed did I realize that him leaving for a year or more was sooo real. I suddenly felt empty (don't laugh at my little sentimentality). I wouldn't get a goodnight call, or talk about how our days went. Just the little things I, we were used to were suddenly the most important aspects of everything that we built for the past 17 months.

So I cried... and cried... and cried... until I fell asleep. Before I went to sleep though, I texted him a really long message, which I just sent him yesterday actually because his roaming just got activated. It sucks at that time cause there was no way I could contact him after we had chatted when he got there. And the next morning, I composed him a goodmorning message that I would send him when his phone is activated.

Felt pretty down, but I was telling myself to smile and be a little bit more optimistic because I knew that Rony will be doing something that he really loves and could potentially put him in a pedestal among musical greats here in the Philippines when he gets back.

One time he told me that he doesn't like seeing me cry, cause it makes him cry as well... *sigh* I miss you bubu...

So June 1st... I was in school to get my grades... not bad... but still have not gotten my math grades yet. Hopefully I passed...

Mr. 80% Rehearsals

Had a BlueRepertory core meeting, then rehearsals for Mr. 80 percent. Got drunk with Pom. He talked about his frustrations about his love life, I talked about Rony... huhuhu...

Went to mag:net cafe at katipunan and watched SPIT (silly people improv theatre) with our Mr. 80 director Carelle. Fun fun fun.

June 2nd I don't know what I did. Slept all day I think.

June 3rd Rony's phone got activated and he calls me to say goodnight and chat a little bit... and it was nice to have that piece of normalcy back. Atleast for a few moments I know that he and I are back in our little sappy world of love story.

So yeah, I'm fine now. Rony and I know where we are in terms of where our relationship stands. He is flying me to Hong Kong on Wednesday to spend a week with him before school starts. Gonna check out his prospect apartments and just lazy around with him hehehehe! I'm so excited!

Oh yeah yesterday my sister and I were not satisfied with our summer escapades so we ended up placing a banig on the ground and sunbathing... in our balcony. Aimed with a garden hose and in our bathing suits... it was like tanning on a beach (well maybe not, it was a bonding experience nonetheless hehehe).

nice tan noh? hehehe

Today was taco day at my house. We called up my oldest brother Alexis and his wife Ate Roma to celebrate my youngest bro's birthday.. actually his bday was on june 3rd). Also made pasta, fried chicken, and mojos with my siblings... not sooo shabby lunch I should say.

Now I'm blogging...

Miss Rony!!!

Love you baby... Happy 17 Months yesterday!

... missing

The things I could have done so you could get your way.
Why just not surfacing when moments have gone?...

An empty me longing for you.
Head hurting not allowing my tears to flow.
For every drop making me think of all the happy thoughts with you.

And it pains me to think about all those.
Affirming the fact that what we have is not a dream.
A pain so true, that you and me will part soon.

Your soft piano hands. Your ticklish toes. Your voice. Your kiss. Your warmth...
All in memory for now.

So i let my tears flow and i'll think of you my bu...